And I don’t really know the purpose of this post. More so a vent I guess. Like everything on here really.
I want to email my boss and tell her I want to stay here in Tamworth.
Why I’m not quite sure. Am I happy here? I don’t know. Is life easy here. Yes.
I think that’s why I want to stay, not because I have friends here or that my life is super exciting here. But it’s easy. My horses are 5 minutes from my house. Work in 5 minutes from my house. Kady is good to live with, theres lots of horsey things on here.
But am I happy?
As I said I don’t actually have any friends here. But I guess I haven’t really made an effort as I know I’m meant to be moving. That would change if I stayed I would play hockey again. I think that would be a pretty sweet way to meet people.
It’s a pretty fair way from home/ anything really. 5 hours to home. 6 to Syd.
The work environment? Is it good or not. Im really not sure.
Do I wanna move or do I wanna stay put. If I move I have no idea where i’ll be going or where Ill end up.
I hate decisions.
I fucking hate being a grown up.
Fuck why cant my life just be simple.
It feels like everyone and the world is against me at the moment. I just feel like the biggest fuck up at everything. I can’t do anything right. I’m so over it. I just wanna go to sleep forever.
I can’t ride for shit anymore.
I’m so fucking ugly and fat it’s not funny.
It’s sad when your dad asks you if you have a boyfriend yet.
Everyone around me is fucking engaged or may as well be!
I can’t make friends.
I get picked on at work.
I’m just a shit human. Fuck.
I want a new life.
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Unsure, but ambitious little hoofs - lead by a brave, brave nose.